I just felt so numb and unloved, and unwanted... So I attempted suicide... I tried to drown myself... I couldn''t breathe... and I was starting to pass out... Then I changed my mind at the last second and was able to pull myself up. I don't know why I didn't just do it... But I didn't as it is obvious to see. Then I cut, deep. But not too deep. But it bled allot...

I don't know... Please... Just leave me a comment, you can say how stupid I was, or something, but... Just let me know that you care, because I could use all the love I could get... After the thing with my mom... I can't handle life anymore knowing, not thinking, but actually KNOWING that my own fucking mother doesn't love me and doesn't want me.

It's just too much to take... so, just to know that someone out there actually gives a fuck about me... Comment saying whatever... You can yell at me for doing it. I don't care, it just means that you don't want me to. Call me an idiot, wahtever. Just please please... I'm begging for some love. It's all I want, to be cared for... Is that so hard to ask? But life's become unbearable for me... and I can't go to the counselor, she'll tell my parents that I'm suicidal. I can't have that happening. So I have almost no one... Not even Jasmine will listen to me anymore.